i dont why my heart flutters

my heart flutters when he reply my fb walls or message.
coz he rarely reply my fb wall and messages.
i dont know why.
my face will flush.
i dont know why.
i have never seen him more than 7 years.
and i only know him as a group leader for 2 weeks.
never able to talk to him.
what is this?
im confused.
i got jealous when he replies a girl walls.
i dont know why.

he is far, yet unable to contact..

OH ALLAH. if he is for me, may he be the one that bring me to jannah.
or vanish this feeling or give it to the exact person. amin.

huuu..kill your darling?

assalamualaikum ang hi to everyone.

kill your darling..
one of the quote ak dpt drpd pahrol juoi- di mana DIA di hatiku?

yup. aku akui ak amik masa yg lama. sgt lama hbskan.

byk yg aku alpakan.

terlampau byk dunia ni yang menghayalkan ak. bersorak syaitan serta rakan2 mereka
dgn aku yg teralpa.

terlampau byk kebaikan ak lupakan. terlampau byk amal aku tinggalkan

aku bukan aku lagi. ak da jauh berubah.

hm.... kecewa dan hampa akan masa yang di tinggalkan begitu sahaja.

sekarang, sedang mengumpul kembali.

belajar kembali drpd zero. asas2 yg sepatutnya.

kill your darlings? apa darling ak?

ak pn x sure. im searching for it. money? family? work? time?

but since ak bzkan diri dgn locum ni. ak rasa lagi bnyk ak manfaatkan masa.
masa tu la nak blaja, keja, kumpul duit, solat suma. sukan je xda daaa...

n masa dgn familyyy... arghhh.. semoga dipermudahkan segalanya. amin.