Friday, July 29, 2011

utk perhatian awak..

secara jujurnya...
sy menerima segala apa akan berlaku.
hanya perlu utk jumpa @ msg @ call dan settlekan hal kita~
awak yg tak perlu disebut namanya...
rasanya taw....
sekiranya ada seseorg di sana yg awak rasa sesuai dgn awak..
cuma perlu bagitahu...
sbb sy semakin matang dan boleh faham.
sbb sy bukan yg dulu yg terlalu mengikut perasaan.
pengalaman mengajar kita....
permasalahan hubungan bukanlah segal-galanya...
macam2 lagi masalah perlu di hadapi.
cuma..awak, jika baca..@ sapew2 yg kenal sape awak 2.
u juz have to tell me.
im okay. here...regardless what ever will happen.. =)

p/s: gila baku. bm gila aku ckp. i prefer to tell my feelings in english..tpi sbb rasa this is what i truly feel...i wanted to wrote it in bm...

Thursday, July 28, 2011

hu......

huuu...
xjadi g umbai.
sbb ada kenduri rumah nenek~
then, balik hari sabtu 2 jg...sbb the next day 2 adik nak balik skolah balik.
then, kena rush back g umah kak seri.
tumpang kak seri pulang! he.

another few more days. hu

Sunday, July 24, 2011

maybe the last visit...

salam n hi everyone~

i had a great weekend i think~
balik dr kuala kangsar- bley dianggap rumah mak angkat la-
i did nothing there...
tolong masak pun x.
mmg x best la...terasa mcm x sedap.
dtg rumah org tpi x tolong masak @ kemas..huhu.
cuma tolong sidai kain n bsh pinggan sket2.
rasa pelik sbb sll balik rumah mak da biasa buat benda2 2..
but the best is...sana makanan dia byk!
n sedap2. n best2..
i dunnow how to describe it.
mmg wallah~ hehe.
lepak2 talking with the siblings...
i felt really wonderful!
seriusly, xda rindu kat dia.
felt like i am really the anak angkat there.
hehe..=)
im avoiding myself from talking about him or asking about him.
n i really did it~ i show no interest of him.
but last2 terkeluar plak dr mulut mama (my mak angkat)
the conservation is below:

kak puare: nas, jgn tinggal barang..nanti mama kena hntr ipoh plak~
me: xda la...rasanya suma nas da simpan...da letak tepi..xda barang tinggal~
mama: apasal pula mama yg kena hntr...nanti suruh la fairuz hntr....
me: ........................

i was like. what does it supposed to mean? i am glad that my expression is still the same. meaningless...hehe..as usual~ i dun wanna have a high hope....i dun want want to expect him to come n see me....i juz dun wanna hope anymore.. ~abdul salam amir said that i am in denial state~ i bet i am. but, dun hope. it will hurt u more i think.

besides than that, kak long n mama also try hard to tell me indirectly that he will be back for good this sunday, 31st july...where he will arrived around 725 am. i heard dat kak long, u dun have to shout out lot actually. i am myself wanna know when he is coming back. juz i am really not hoping he would come n see me at home.

precisely, i am not going to be at home this sunday morning. as i am going back to nenek's house in hulu langat bcoz we have kenduri! kenduri b4 puasa~ hm... everyone will be there ! yeay! tpi dis kenduri postponed our family outing to umbai melaka to eat ikan bakar~ huuuu.... makes me really dissapointed~ huuuu...

whatever it is..i think i have to look into the future... dun live thinking a lot about the past... whatever happens u have to bare it n face it will full strength....hey, u gonna work as a doctor in 8 months time...dun think about this stupid thing. juz study n prepare being a safe dr which will not harm the patient. i am glad, that the shift session is going to be done starting this september. but, i hope i will have the oppurtunity to experienced a lot of things during my housemanship.
amin.

okies...think have to go 1st.

p/s: i think this will b my last visit to kuala kangsar...as i am no longer have to visit his parents as he is coming back next week. =) n if he does not see me..i think this will be the last... or perhaps when he is not there, back in kuala kangsar..i will come n visit them.. =)

untill then, daaaa~

salam... ^_^

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

x bley training.....=(

argh~~
found out dat..
kena ligament strain.
kena rehat for 3 weeks the max.
harap next week da recover n heal.
so dat bley start training~
sdey! =(

Sunday, July 10, 2011

ada aku kisah? neutral 2 best apa!

i am not into any party!
not also involving in bersih or patriot~
or any illegal rally!
not into any of it.
y is it if neutral? means dat dun care about ur country is it?
no la stupid!!!
taw x neutral 2 maksudnya x memihak mana2.
means dat dia memerhati..
ak blaja la masa skolah dulu. mengundi 2 1 tgjwb.
if x undi berdosa, kena tnya kat akhirat nnt!
memerhati doesnt mean u dun care.
we are observing. to know which party is the best party.
who they think the best!
apa ciri2 kepimpinan korg rasa the best.
pilih la mana korg nak...setiap org. pemimpin yg best 2..kriteria dia laen2.
ak maybe laen dgn kow. kow maybe laen dgn ak.
so, itu bergantung kat kow nak mcm mana~
jgn la bila org 2 party laen2, kow nak pandang jijik lak kat org 2.
jgn la bila org 2 x sokong party 2, kow nak hentak dia. kow nak pandang serong mcm 2.
kow blaja agama. agama x ajar kow layan org mcm 2. nabi x ajar mcm 2.
nabi suruh hormat~ so, pandai2 la fikir~
lu ada otak, lu pk la sendiri~

p/s: sbb bengang. suka hati ak la nak neutral, bkn korg yg tentukan ak msk syurga neraka. n i dun give damn thing to u guys~

Saturday, July 9, 2011

hadiah utk diri sendiri if~

janji utk diri sendiri aka hadiah utk diri sendiri~
if dpt berat jadi 60kg, n it sustain for 1 month..
bley mkn once brfst mcd~ hehe.
so, nasirah nasir! all the best! =)

Sunday, July 3, 2011

post ipoh run..

salam..glad dat i finished my ipoh run~
weeeee...
within the qualifying time~
mcm dpt jek 1 hour 10 mins~ tpi x sure la~
hm..tpi dpt medal! puas hati...
next run~ seremban half marathn~
yg 2 mmg xdpt medal r~ tpi dpt sijil pn ok~
sbb 2 kt seremban kn?
so, alang2 blik rumah..join la run 2~ hehe! okies
have a good rest nasirah nasir~ =)

Saturday, July 2, 2011

pre-ipoh run..

berdebar2...
ipoh run~ my 2nd 10 km run~
berdebR~ huhu
harap dpt buat 1 hour 10 mins. amin

nothing interesting!

baru ingt dulu2..
aku minat dgn indian guys.
masa zaman skolah~ heh.
yap, indian guys yg mcm melayu~
nasib la mak x suka~ hehe