if u juz leave me, n thought dat i can do everything by myself. u r wrong

hari ni nak ckp bm~
ak rasa ak ni mmg jauh dr perfect~
muka x lawa, gemok, pastu perangai mcm tomboy~
x feminin, sgt belagak, ego, agama aku sgt la jauh.
lepak kuar dgn guys~ ckp besar.
aku mmg 0 la if compare dgn org len~
bg free pn blm tentu org nak~ huhu

tpi, aku harap, utk dpt suami yg baik,
yg x cpt marah, sabar, n plg utama sekali
-yg mampu nak bawa aku balik jalan yg benar-

aku sedar, aku sgt jauh la dr segi isteri soleh-solehah ni.
2 thn..aku da berubah segalanya.
ak rasa perubahan aku ni~
mula2 sikit~lama2 ak rasa makin jauh..
tpi bila nak balik ke pangkal jalan.
aku rasa susah sgt~ aku x taw mana nak mula?
ak x taw mana nak pergi. sapew nak bawa aku?
sapew nak urge aku. sapew nak motivate n ingatkan ak~
lama2..ak jadi makin x kisah.
dalam thn 2011 ni. ak rasa ak bley kira brape byk kali aku
jejak kaki pergi masjid~
bley kira berapa byk kali aku pergi usrah @ dgr tazkirah.
bley kata 0 kot~
this is seriusly deviated....
even la kow solat tonggang tonggek, buat suma amalan fardhu 2.
tpi blm tentu amal diterimakan? aku rasa sumthing is not perfect now~
ada sumthing yg kurg dlm solat @ amalan aku~ 2 sbb ak jdi mcm ni.
tpi seriusly, i have no guidance.

ak xbley org judge ak~
u have to know me first~ then u can judge me.
u have to guide me first, then things will get easier.
if u juz leave me, n thought dat i can do everything by myself.
u r wrong~ im not dat tough to do dat~ huhu.

haish. hopefully, i can bring back myself towards the better me~ amin

dear heart....

i think..my heart still waits for him.
when i think of him..
my heart does not accelerate like b4..
my heart does not hurt anymore.
my heart become peace..
he did not hurt my pride.
he did not makes me thing foolishly.
he makes me think more seriously.
he makes me think more wisely
but i try to run away~
run far away from him, n also HIM.
not HIM who i want to run actually,
but i changed a lot.
its my way of changing.
not towards the better site..
but against it...
but he, who is at the other part of the world...
becoming better from day to day.
which makes me..wanna run away much more...
as i think me myself, can no longer walk together.
i wanna run far far away~
far away until cannot be reach anymore~

dear heart...pls dont be fragile..
stay strong dear heart...
if he is not the one for u...
accept it willingly... =)
as there is someone out there waiting for u...
hoping for u 2 b with him...=)

running is my passion~

running~
i love running now days~
it makes me feel energetic...
all the adrenaline n epinephrine rush along the body~
makes me feel better everyday when im down.
when im upset. seriously, it changed me a lot.
it's the way for me to release my stress, anger everything(-ve thing.)
maybe 5-10 years ago. running was the thing dat i avoid so much.
but now it the thing which i cant resist anymore.
thing which im addicted to..
if i aint jog for a day~ i felt sumthing is missing. i think.
n bcoz of jogging for 4 months.
i lost 8 kilograms already....quite a good thing i think
i hope i could lost another 8 kg in 4 months time before final exam pls.
=)

to girls or boys out there,
try jogging n join marathon urself..
u will feel different. come n join~
u will get addicted like me~ seriously...=)

dearest nasirah nasir~ ^_^

hm......

haish~
i dun give damn hard things to u, do u know dat?
what do u expect?
if kena cabar mmg la akan sahut cabaran 2.
haish...
it's not juz a typical dr..
i aint a typical dr who is egois..
who does not admit their wrongs..
so what?
geram kejap.....
mmg la buat sy berapi~ haish.

for ALLAH sake,
luckily u r not the person who i like..
but a person who i will want to be with maybe~

take care...may ALLAH bless u always~

adik.....

i miss the only lil sis i have amirah nasir~
miss her childishness...
miss her dumbness...
miss everything bout her~
without her, i dunno what will happen to me~ huhu
i hope i will write to u soon~ sori iyah!

at the same time,
here in ipoh...i got to know some of the junior~
who have been my pet brothers n sisters...
but the one im attach quite long is aidi~
y is it? im not sure....
but he is juz like my lil sis~
their attitude almost the same...but certainly he is much more mature than iyah la~


if i have the chance, i'll meet them both together~ =)
take care both of u~ as i really love both of u so much~ =)